Morning Two

I had a restless sleep, full of dreams I can't recall in the light of morning. The restlessness seems to be neutral, neither good or bad, so it is likely a response to taking first steps on a new but long thought about path.

A friend sent me this last night (I share this with his permission):

"You are woman!

I’m speechless… awed… I know what a big step this is..

I would like to be there for you.. In any way that would be appropriate.. If you want to be held, listened to, if you want to go for a walk and not talk about it at all…

If money becomes an issue I will be your angel..

You go with much love and support from here!"

and this morning:

"I would be honored to support you. You can use me to drive you and pick you up….

I can only imagine what it must be like to change something so fundamental to your appearance and to your psychological history. I know your courage and I especially know your heart. It is your heart that has always moved me to be your friend."

I am in awe myself. I was berating myself for not expressing enough emotion in the first post. And quite sure that few would understand why this is an emotional issue, how deep the emotion goes, or that it is even deeply emotional at all.

I'll call this friend J. J wasn't the only one who emailed or called last night (more sharing in the next post), and even though I stated that part of my purpose in starting this blog was to generate support, I was startled at how easily tears came when I read these emails, and the need for the love of friends and family that those tears were clearly indicating.

So thank you J. And everyone else who emailed, phoned in, or simply just held me in their thoughts.